well yesterday was a good day i guess..
i went to work around 9 am and got to leave at 1130 because there was no more
work for me to do. After i went back home (amanda's) and talked to her for awhile
and sat down and read the beginning of "Anthem". Around 1230 i fell asleep
till 430 and i woke up to 5 missed calls on my phone. AFter i took a shower
i called back ian, who was on my missed calls list, and went to marshfield
to go and pick him up. we went to scituate skate park and i had an alright time
there. after we went up to jenkins school and skated this 100 pound bike rack. it was insane, me and ian had to carry it so far to get it to the back of the basketball courts. AFter we finally dropped it off there, we skated it and had way too much fun. I finally got back to amanda's and we waited around for kerri to bring us our alcohol. Around 1030 we started to drink............and played guesstures....hahahahaha
it was hilarious, me and dan were kicking ass until the second round where we got two rounds of 0 points...and amanda and danny one by 1 fucking point
i had like 5 and half coronas and a lot of skittles...so it came out to me getting the spins...i dont even know how..and me throwing up in amanda's sink...mmmmmmm throw up at 1 in the morning..
i think danny, and dan threw up....
amanda, dan, and danny all went through an entire bottle of bacardi o in ..hhmmm.....2 AND A HALF HOURS!!!....
we ended up talking like british people, it was a crazy night, and i passed out on the couch, which is my bed, and woke up at 9 and came to work where i am doing nothing except writing this thing...
:-)
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| Date: | 2004-07-15 15:23 |
| Subject: | working |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  chipper | | Music: | misfits |
hey whats going on im at work .. doesnt that sound exciting
well i went to the carnival last night and went on the zipper..it
was squeaky..very squeaky...like metal rubbing up against metal grinding sound
but me and bobo went on anyways it was the shit..
anyways.. im out of my house for the ....uuh..i think i lost count
thats how many times ive been kicked out of my house...so now im living at
amanda's for the rest of the month till everything settles over
kinda shitty part of the summer...somone went back home...dennis is
in south carolina till aug..and dan is going to leave on aug 1
hey but anyways...hopefully this summer wont suck...cause im hoping this
girl will come and hang out with me ...haha
but just updating cause i have nothing else to do ...
ps....
i think im getting tanked tonight...hahahahahahahhahaha
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later im going to meet up with dan...and we are going to buy 2 24 packs of corona
drink..drink...drink..drink...
chill at a beach house...its someones house..who i hung out with...and shes amazing...and her fucking house is amazing...i cant wait till tonight
sitting here at work...reading sad..pathetic..complaining...journal entries...im so sick of crap..time to turn this attitude around and get krunkasfuck for this summer!!
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| Date: | 2004-06-03 08:10 |
| Subject: | hahaha |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  aggravated | | Music: | grateful dead - st. stephen |
i got into a minor car accident today
reasons why:
my car sucks
bald tire in the front
rain
slick street
bitch in front of grandma who stopped right when the a school buses lights turned on...she kinda stopped...kept going...and the decided to stop
grandma, who was behind the bitch in the van, stop short..
me in the back of grandma, going 25 ..slammed on my brakes...which need to be
replaced
end result:
me and dennis fine....both cars, not mine, not a fucking scratch on them
my car....the front is crunched up...one headlight broken...need new flip up headlight...
cant really open my trunk
my mom bitching at me alot more than she normall does
awsome...
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| Date: | 2004-05-24 22:37 |
| Subject: | :-) |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | rejuvenated | | Music: | The Format - First Single |
i dont know what im thinking....but tonight was awsome....kerry is 21 and i got to hang out with her for her bday...and i realized friends are friends...there is nothing you can possibly do to change the rotation of friends....your friends are your friends....dont try to get involved into other groups...just let your friends just come to you (or let it take time) cause eventually it all seems to come together
blondi144sg: hey you
StandFast420: hey
blondi144sg: how are you
StandFast420: im ok
StandFast420: and you?
blondi144sg: just ok?
blondi144sg: im alright
StandFast420: yeah just thinking alot right now
blondi144sg: you wanna talk about it?
StandFast420: its nothing serious
blondi144sg: okay... well if you want... i'm all ears
blondi144sg: dan says hi and that he tried to calll you today
StandFast420: really?
StandFast420: what is he at your house right now?
blondi144sg: really.
blondi144sg: no. we're on the phone.
StandFast420: oh
StandFast420: whats up mofo
StandFast420: i dont know...just shit in general ..
StandFast420: love especially
blondi144sg: thinking about anyone in particular? or just love in general?
StandFast420: just in general
StandFast420: like how i cant win now
StandFast420: yep.........
blondi144sg: justin any girl would be lucky to have a guy like you.... honest to god. and you deserve someone who will appriciate that
blondi144sg: dan says he loves you
StandFast420: lol
StandFast420: honestly
StandFast420: ....
StandFast420: i cant hear that anymore
StandFast420: im sick of waiting
StandFast420: i dont want to hear...you deserve someone better, or just something like that
blondi144sg: i just want you to be happy... that's all i want for you
blondi144sg: lynard skinard is coming to the music circus in august. -dan
StandFast420: it pissed me off so much today when dan and karl said they wrote a song about me....
blondi144sg: (sorry i told him i was trying to talk to you but he keeps telling me to say stuff to you)
StandFast420: how i steal there play
blondi144sg: that's stupid
StandFast420: you know what i said...
blondi144sg: what?
StandFast420: karl you lurred shane into your arms with weed....dennis you have a girlfriend...karl you havent done shit for me, hes sooooooooo ungrateful, doesnt care about anyone but himself
blondi144sg: yeah that is the downside of karl. but i know dennis and dan really appriciate your friendship... well dan does at least. he's always talking about how your his best friend and that he just loves you
StandFast420: i love dan...hes an very very very very very very very .. very!! understanding person, so open, fucking so chill, so outgoing, hes the example of good friend...im sorry to make you an example of something...but your the man dan
StandFast420: :'(im getting a little teary
StandFast420: lol
blondi144sg: oh mna justin i adore you. you are possibly one of the best friends i have ever had... i know that sounds wierd cause we havent known eachother that long but i feel like i could tell you anything and i just love you
StandFast420: amanda i cant believe we all didnt meet any sooner...its so wierd how we all needed each other and then we finally have each other...but i hate it so much cause we needed each other through the three years and now we are all creating and catching up like we had a past .... but its wierd its working and i hope it gets better for the rest of our lives
blondi144sg: you have a way with words... you know how to make someone feel so special
StandFast420: i dont get how i said it.....but i can really say it came from the heart
blondi144sg: i'm glad. i want you to know... i honestly mean everything i say about you
blondi144sg: especially what i said to you tonight
StandFast420: im going to give you guys a hug tommorow..lol
blondi144sg: good... i'm looking forward to it
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| Date: | 2004-05-09 14:32 |
| Subject: | Why? |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  crushed |
Ester why do you look all blue
What did I say to you to make you feel all blue
Ester when you walk in the room
everybody turns to look at you
And that night when I called you
I was being young
And the way I tried to win you
I was being young, I was being young
Ester why can't you talk to me
Why can't you look at me
Why can't sit with me
Ester with your lips all full
With your heart all full, is there room for two
And that night when I called you
I was being young
And the way I tried to win you
I was being young, I was being young
Do Do Dooo
Do Do
Do Do Dooo
Do Do
Do Do Dooo
Do Do
Do Do Do Do-Do-Do-Do
Do Do Dooo
Do Do
Do Do Dooo
Do Do
Do Do Dooo
Do Do
Do Do Do Do-Do-Do-Do
And that night when I called you
I was being young
And the way I tried to win you
I was being young, I was being young
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| Date: | 2004-05-07 20:42 |
| Subject: | my life once again |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  indescribable | | Music: | violent femmes .... of course |
Day after day
I will walk and I will play
but the day after today
I will stop
and I will start my way
why can't I get just one kiss
why can't I get just one kiss
believe me there'd be somethings that I wouldn't miss
but I look at your pants and I need I need a kiss
why can't I get just one screw
why can't I get just one screw
believe me I know what to do
but something won't let me make love to you
why can't I get just one fuck
why can't I get just one fuck
I guess it's something to do with luck
but I waited my whole life for just one
day afterday
I get angry
and I will say
that the day
is in my sight
when i'll take a bow
and say goodnight
violent femmes no how to sum it up...
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| Date: | 2004-04-28 19:06 |
| Subject: | questions for you |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | optimistic | | Music: | 92.5 the river (cause i am at work) |
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
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| Date: | 2004-04-25 13:30 |
| Subject: | my haircut... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | disappointed | | Music: | The stills - im still in love |
hey well im at work right now...but i got off the phone with my mom. the topic of our argument for today was getting my haircut which i refuse to do because i have tried over and over and over and over and over again to grow my hair out cause i have always had it short...i just want it long for one time. I gave in and i said i would get my hair cut but i would only get it trimmed...but she said no.
Reasons why: "your a disgrace to the family"
"No guy in the family has long hair...except my uncle chris which she forgot"
"You look horrible"
"Its out of style"
"It was my bday, and thats all i wanted"
"You need to get a haircut like bill (wait where is he right now, oh yeah fucking over my mom in money and hes a fuckup)"
"You look ugly in it"
Well whats that tell you about my mom....shes fucked...im telling you right now...shes fucked.....
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| Date: | 2004-04-13 18:14 |
| Subject: | Man... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  exanimate | | Music: | Pink Floyd - Us and Them |
today was pretty fucking shitty, i have no idea why...maybe cause i havent had any good sleep in awhile or maybe cause me and dennis lost this radio contest that was 3 grand....fucking wxrv( is going to burn down ), but i dont know what the hell was wrong with me today, mind got so blank and i wasnt making any sense, like in english class i was questioning something about the whole food chain thing and mans survival and i said a comment that was totally wrong and i didnt understand it, and everyone was looking at me like i was really dumb...i dont know whats going on with me, i need to get away from school and go on vacation...cause i need to focus and do something .. like film with my friends and skate in boston for a weekend...not fuck around...get to business and fucking film and fucking skate....
oh yeah sorry i havent been typing in my livehournal...ive been kinda fucked up and lazy
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| Date: | 2004-03-25 18:35 |
| Subject: | ? |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  geeky | | Music: | Guns and Roses - Knocking on Heaven's Door |
Well i finally returned to my house on wed. Things are getting a little bit better right now. The senior dinnder dance is tommorow, im kinda excited but at the same time im kind of scared to get caught drinking cause im a pussy..hahaha, i dont want to go to jail or get caught drunk driving on one of the busiest nights in a scituate cop's life. Ill prob be a little bit ansy tommorow. Yesterday was fun, i got to chill with Dennis to shoot a commercial for this contest by this radio station 92.5...1st prize is 3000, 2nd 2000, 3rd, 1000, i hope i get something cause i have like no money. Right now im working and its boring but emma is here and me and here are being really crazy, i wonder what the people downstairs are thinking, ahaha, we are making so much noise. We are throwing food and just shooting rubber bands at each other. I havent written anything in awhile, so i thought i should update. I got a new picture...haha....its kinda sick, its a deformed hand..no actually its tito's hand after he fingered a diseased freshman...
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| Date: | 2004-03-20 13:40 |
| Subject: | Yep yep yep... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  drained | | Music: | Pretty Girls Make Graves - All Medicated Geniuses |
Well im sitting at work right now bored out of my mind...so i thought i write some stuff.....yep yep yep...last night was kinda dumb because all i did was work and then i went to the hanover mall to go meet up with dennis, dan, kristen, and uuuhhhhh....i think amanda..woops..., so when i got there and i called kristen's phone and she was being wierd so i hung up, and walked around looking for them, but i couldnt find them so i went into journey's to talk to kerri, kerri's awsome shes so nice, no shes not nice, she awsome...no not awsome, she is like the ...."THE BEST PERSON IN THE WORLD", hahaha, shes awsome, she's very understanding...but anyways i talked to her for like an hour and a half and then around 9 i went to pembroke to go play pool with dennis and dan and the rest...i kicked some ass and at the same time i got my own ass kicked by dan...fucking 8 ball...after billards me and dennis went back to his, .. (u know, cause i can't go back to my house, cause i got kicked out my house) and made so speghetti O's and watched "School of Rock" that was a good movie, but i was tired i fell asleep in the middle of it, cause i was soooooo tired.., so dennis wakes me up randomly at 1 in the morning and tells me to go downstairs and i end up sleeping in his sister's bed !!! hahahahahahaha...but his sister wasnt home because she slept over her friends...i woke up at 7 and then 830 and got into the clothes i have been wearing for 3 days straihgt and talked to dennis..because dennis couldnt sleep and then warmed up my car...then went to work around 9...so here i am 20 mins more and then i am free to do whatever i feel like....then around 8 im going to milton to stay and chill with my uncle because he is basically the father i never had. but uh, yeah, 781 267 4104 is my number call me up and cheer me up...
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Hey well, these five days have been great, .. right now i am at work, i just wanted to take a break to let out a couple of things...i got kicked out of my house, what a suprise, i guessed i deserved it, but im glad i got kicked out of my house, cause now i can see what i am going to do with my self...hopefully it will turn out a good decision....if not, owell its life and ill bitch and moan and live in my car and go to the rest of high school and then try to figure out how i am going to pay for college because my mom isnt going to pay for it cause shes a douchbag....if your someone who says you have it bad, think again..cause right now i have it bad, youve prob had it bad, but right now i have it bad, so dont give me anymore shit, cause im ready to go and buy a guy or steal one and go and hunt u down and put that fucking gun in your mouth and see you shit your pants ( for my personal amusement..because i need it) hopefully it will be a good night, cause im going to go and hang out with szklut and dennis and go to cuetime and play some pool...and get drrruuuunnkk!!!, because i want to drink my pain away and act like a bum...haha. right now i have barely any money and i have no idea what to do...so i guess im going to work for the rest of my life, cause i guess i have to get a place...if you want to live with me..just ask me and ill get an apartment withy you...it will be fun. Work is so fucking boring, i cant wait to get out. If you want to give me a place to stay for a night give me a call at 7812674104 because i really need it....till then see you next entry..haha
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OK well this morning was hell...literally hell..like i had to deal with satan herself......I was dead asleep, because i basically passed out last night...so its probably about 615, and i get up at 633 in the morning...lol o be exact...but anywasy, my mom opens my door and starts yelling at me...."teach me how to use the fucking computer, you need to sit down with me and teach me how to use the computer..blah blah...i was like, " i cant believe you just woke me up, (cause this was best sleep i got in awhile, cause i cant sleep good anymore), so we get in argument and she ends up leaving cause shes a fucking bitc, and she knew i was right because she woke me up...that fucking bitch....so i go downstairs and take a shower and i get out and go and get dressed, and she tells me to copy someting for her, so i do, and she puts paper in the printer and it gets jammed...im already late for school, so im like "ill do it when i get home"..then she gets bull shit,like literally frustrated...when she gets like this she acts like a 5 year old...she jumps up and down and whines, whines, whines, whines, whines, whines, whines, and fucking whines!!!!!, aaaahhh its so annoying.....so she keeps yelling at me, its 7 in the morning, and i went to sleep at 1230!!!, so i couldnt take anymore of he shit, so i start yelling at her. ...and then she starts giving more shit, so get in her face and i yell "its 7 in the morning and your giving me this shit!!!!! wtf is wrong with you, you never have any respect for me, and then she says " you think the world revolves around you" ( how does it revolve around me, when i have to get off my ass and go to school, and yo ask me to do favor for you, and i cant do it right now, cause i cant be late for school!!!), so i get her face, and then she pushes me! in the face, and she has like the longest nails, so it scratches, then she starts hitting me, so in defense i throw her on the ground and i said dont ever touch me again, then se gets up histerically crying and starts hitting me again, so i throw her on the couch and shes still hitting me, grabbing my shirt, everything, it was a big mess, and then her boyfriend runs in and says thats it im calling the cops, and i go "good fuck you guys, im out of here.....", that was my morning,,great story right!!!!!!!, fuck that!!!, this week sucks...respond to me and give me something to do with myself...
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Alright, well another day has passed and its 1122 right now...and im buzzed off some bud. I went to school, found out i did good in my physics test..91 baby!!, and i did good on my math, i finally get out of school....physced to go to piebald with dan at the middle east around 8....i get out of school and i chill with dennis and go to the hanover mall to chill with kirsten and jenn.....after that, i go and pick up dan to go to boston to go and see piebald......when we get there...it goes really good, me and dan were like an half an hour early, so we to 711 and then to wendy's to grab something to eat...then we wait in line in the fucking snow for a good 20 minutesss..crazy, we finally get in...we see this kid who is drinking a beer and me and dan decide to ask him and see if the kid can buy for us...so he did, and then the kid left, so we asked him, and see if dan could wear his wrist band, letting dan buy for me and him, so we could enjoy the show buzzed, cause i was so physced i was going to see piebald in concert finally...so me and dan see this band nightmare for you and then some other emo band...and then all of sudden me and dan are on our third beer, when all of sudden......................this bouncer comes up to me, with me holding a bud in my hand, and asks for my idea...im not 21...SO I GOT KICKED OUT OF MIDDLE EAST!!!!! AND THEN DAN GOT KICKED OUT!!!! BECASUE THEY FOUND OUT THAT ME AND HIM WERE UNDER 21....GREAT NIGHT, SO WHEN WE GOT OUT...I GO TO MY CAR, AND I SEE MY CAR HANDLE WAS REMOVED, AND THEN MY CD PLAYER WAS STOLEN, AND I WAS FREAKING OUT, AND THEN I COULDNT TURN MY FUCKING CAR ON, AND THEN I GET OUT....AND LOL....I SEE MY CAR WAS BEHIND THE CAR I WASIN.....IT WAS THE SAME CAR...HOW FUCKING WIERD...SO WE FUCKING GET IN MY CAR AND DRIVE BACK TO HANOVER,....WHEN WE GET TO HANOVER ,MALL TO TAKE PISSES CAUSE I WAS BUZZED AND SO WASNT DAN...SO NOW I AM HERE, AND THAT IS MY STORY OF A GREAT FUCKING NIGHT...WOOPEEE!!! FUCK THAT!!! I REALIZED GOD HATES ME!!!!
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| Date: | 2004-03-16 22:36 |
| Subject: | Wow... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  nervous | | Music: | Zwan - lyric |
Its like 10:40 right now...i shouldve went to bed around like 8 cause im so tired right now, but oh well. Right now, im seeing whether or not if we dont have school tommorow, cause i really dont feel like getting up at 630 in the morning.....but here was my day.
I basically started off the morning, waking up at 510 so i could study for a physics test, i got up and went downstairs and got my book and then tried to studied. I basically went straight to my bed and laid down...in which it ended up me sleeping till 630. I woke up and went to the shower. I got dressed and warmed up my car...( I cant wait to get rid of it)...I finally go to school. 1st period was cool, all i basically did was watch a movie, 2nd period was so boring, cause its spanish, it sucks.. and then i had my physics test, which was crazy. I had my film class after that, i realized how much i hate my film teacher, because he was basically a wrestling jock in high school, and he got the position as a teacher because he could become a wrestling coach. WHile teaching my class, he thinks my work is basically shit, and when he made something, i looked at it, and was like what the hell is this...my shit looks better than this...im not exaggerating, this guy basically made a wrestling video which i could do in 2 secs...and took him 3 weeks!!!
He pisses me off, after i had gym, and i LOL, got into the most intense pickle ball game ever...it was great, cause it was exciting..(wow what a life i have), then i finally went to math, i was exhausted...i cant barely walk, when i get thre, my teach (Mrs Donnelly) is a fucking crack head says we have a quiz...i spent like 45 mins on it, i couldnt even think, i was so brain dead...and then i had brett clinton annoying me,..i finally get in the room, and he was giving me shit, so i snapped on him ....i finally went out to my car, right when i got into my car i lit up a cigarette and im looking for my keys....i cant find them, so i reach in my glove compartment to get my spare and drive to work....(man was that a good time for a cigarrete), later when i leave work, i got to the atm and relized i dont have my debit card with me..........if i cant find it in school tommorow, that means i cant go to piebald, and you know what else that means....heads will roll....see what happens tommorow...(fucking kill me)
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| Date: | 2004-03-14 18:38 |
| Subject: | My first time.. |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | sore | | Music: | Jack Johnson - Cookie Jar |
Man, man, man, did i feel like complete shit today, I woke up around 10:45 with the wost dry mouth. I really need to stop smoking cigarettes. When i woke up, i didnt even take a shower i just put on the clothes i wore from last night, when i was at the billards. It reaked cigarette smoke. I finally got in my car, and i had to warm it up for like 6 mins cause its such a piece. When i arrived to work,my co-worker said i smelled like cigarettes... I basically worked only templates and then went home. When i got home, what do i hear.....really loud music, reason why....my mom was soooo trashed. Its probably the worst thing that could possibly happen to me in my days. I can't stand the combination of alcohol and my mother. She gets so annoying, loud, and gay. Its a bad scene. I took a shower and then hung out with jenn.. after i went to cvs to go and pick up a posterboard and then went to Village Market to talk to Chris, Kenny, and Matt. When im leaving who do i see, Karl and Rob. Ive been friends with karl for about a year now, and all of sudden i lost touch with him, cause hes worse than a girl with PMS. I dont know what his deal is, maybe its Rob, cause Rob is fucked!!! Rob puts himself into depression cause he has nothing better else to do, because he loves to seclude himself from the outside world. He pisses me off so much, both Karl and Rob piss me off, because they are like a couple. Im frustrated because i dont have a close friend, im jealous....I dont have a true friend right now, cause someone at sometime always seem to fuck me over eventually.....but i dont know, hopefully things will get better.................................................... I hope???
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